Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I always turn to blogging...

I am currently in the process of turning over a new leaf. Starting a new chapter of my life. Whatever phrase you would like to stick there. The process is slow and not easy, but I am taking it one step at time.

During a small amount of time, okay maybe not small, I went through what I would like to call the I'm-positive-you're-it-but-not-really phase. You know, the phase where you believe you have found someone worth holding onto, but really they aren't? That one. It was a beast of an obsession and not only did I believe this person was worth it... I was so damn blind that I gave them three chances. Seriously, what in the world Olivia? Once wasn't enough? Isn't it painful enough when someone leaves you by CHOICE? Jeez!

Anyways, that is all over now and I can only hope for better, right?

On a completely other note, I am still supremely depressed that I am not able to attend my International Business program in Italy. So now, I am left scrambling around like a human with my head cut off... not chicken mind you I didn't mess that up, human. Essays, money, applications, transcripts, GMAT scores, resumes, recommendations and decisions -- it's all too much!!

Who gives anyone the right to judge someone based on their GMAT score? That test is the most ridiculous thing I have ever encountered and I am not just saying that because I did poorly on both tries. I truly mean it. When am I ever going to be in a professional position where I am unable to use a calculator or grammar check?

Speaking of professional positions, even though I am NOT in one... I probably should get back to doing my job.

Until next time.


1 comment:

nozomiyume said...

I'm really sorry you had to go through all of that - it's never fun :( I've struggled through similar times, and it's not something I would wish on my worst enemy. When you're a person that really lets their heart take over, it's hard to push back - but those are also the people who love fully and without regret when the right person comes along.

And very sad that you won't be able to go to your program in Italy - I know you were super excited about it :( Everything happens for a reason - I hope the reason for this comes to the surface soon.